First Step

" A man's steps are directed by the Lord. How then can anyone understand his own way?" Proverbs 20:24

In Proverbs I've notived many verses like this one about how God directs your path and to seek after Him. It's something I've really been struggling with this past year as I try to find a job in journalism or just figure out where He wants me to go. A steady steam of resumes have been sent out and I've even considered physical therapy and the Navy. But which of these courses would God want me to take?
So I've been a little confused and having a hard time trying to figure this out. I think, at times, I know exactly where He wants me to go. Taking the first step in that direction is nervewracking. I have a million plus reasons why I shouldn't do it. It's not even like making the first step would too big a deal and maybe that's all God wants. I don't know why He may send me this way. Or anyway.
Like in this verse, how can I, a mere human, understand what these steps mean in the huge scheme of things. He can see ahead of me. I just need to hold His hand and follow.
It's going to be difficult and I'm going to have a huge lifestyle change. This won't be my comfortable little zone any more. But isn't that what this Christian walk is about. Following God no matter where it sends us. Taking that first little step into a much bigger world. As long as I'm holding my Daddy's hand I'll be OK.

Day 1

Today starts the Daniel Fast in the life of me, Jennier, Kayla and Cathy. Only fruits, veggies, nuts and water. No more meats. No more bread. No more milk. AND worst of all: no more Oreos. At least for this month. This fast last through June. It's something big I've never tried. I have fasted before. Usually I go without food, but I've never done any fast relating to food for a month. I am excited.
All day yesturday, doubts seemed to plague my mind. Not only doubts, but just plain stubbornness. And grumbling, let me tell you. So last night I was reading in Numbers where the Isrealites were complaining about not having meat in the desert. (Numbers 11 I do recommend you read it.) Course God got angry...with good reason...and then He struck them with a plague. I'm sitting here whining about not being able to eat meat for a month and then BAM!
Then I started focusing on why I'm doing this. You know, why am I fasting for a month? Because I want to see a revival in our youth. I want to see youth living for Christ. Why? Because it means more people love Jesus. Why? Because they won't go to hell.
I am fasting food so the youth in this community can come to a loving relationship with Christ and will not go to hell.
I can give up meat, bread, milk and Oreos for a month so youth aren't on their way to hell. Heck, maybe even a lifetime of this stuff. OK, let's not get that serious yet. Which makes me feel a little guilty. Let me see how a month goes, then we'll talk. I'm sure they serve Oreos in heaven at the great banquet.
So here it goes.
And day 1 did go well for me although I learned the purple leaves in salad are kinda nasty. They don't taste too bad when you mix them with the rest, but alone they're yuck.